Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Oh, The Places You'll Go!

Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.


Oh how I thought this was appropriate for me today. I have just finished filling out my FAFSA (Free Application for Federal Student Aid) so that I can start attending College. AHHHH!!

Basically my life in a nutshell right now ... Single mom to 4 kids who doesn't make enough to pay the mortgage or any of the bills. No child support for 2 weeks and when I do get it it's less than what most people get for one child. I need to make a change ... finding a 2nd job to work while the kids are at their dad's has not been fruitful.

A coworker suggested that I look into the Women In Transition program at the Community College. I had heard rumors that there are single moms that go to school full time and get enough in grants (free money) that they can pay for rent/mortgage and daily life stuff. So I figured what the heck a few hours out of my life to go and talk to someone.

Last night I went to the Orientation and was so excited and freakin nervous as heck. I also had to talk it over with Mini-me. My ex decided after he got laid off/fired that he was going to College. Mini-me was not very happy about this. This is her Sr. year and she is worried that if he goes to school and gets Financial Aid she won't get what she needs when she starts in the fall. I didn't want her to think I was trying to cut in front of her.

When I came home all excited last night she seemed upset. :( Which made me a bit sad. I don't want her to think I am trying to take anything from her. Not one person in my family has gone to College and graduated. In fact I am pretty sure I am the only one that has actually attended any College courses.

Today however when I picked her up from work she was going on and on about how she told her Yearbook teacher what I was doing and how we may take some classes together because we are both going for the same major (Teaching). I knew at that moment that this is what I need to be doing. :)

So here is my goal list as of right now ... I am not going to quit my job. I love it way to much to leave it. I also need the income. Im way to scared to go to school full time ... fear of failing again. I am going to babystep my way into this. I am hoping to start this Spring (End of March). My desires is to get my degree in teaching. I would like to teach Middle school. I also want to take some small business classes. I would like to turn my garage into a sewing room and teach sewing classes. Not like the stuffy ones you find in sewing/quilt shops. Fun, laid back and all ages welcome type of classes. I have it all planned out in my head .... all the way down to lesson plans and costs.

I am so very nervous right now. I feel like this is what I should be doing and where I should be going. I am hoping that my gut is leading me in the right direction. :)

And when things start to happen,
don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll start happening too.

OH!
THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

You'll be on your way up!
You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.


3 comments:

MindyMom said...

Hi, I just found your blog through "T". I'm also a single mom of four kids. We're pretty rare so thought I'd check you out!

Nice post. I get it.

T said...

You go girl!! Oh HOORAY! Mindy found you. I was hoping she would....

Good for you and it does sound like your daughter's excited after all.

Baby steps are good!

WonderMom said...

Send me an e-mail at wondermom.picking.up.the.pieces at gmail.com and I'll send you a bunch of links that a friend sent me to grants/scholarships/etc. for single moms.